tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9172726268459163555.post5246402603247221525..comments2023-10-20T01:45:56.058-07:00Comments on Something Brilliant is Brewing: Baby's first addiction (caution: LONG post)Lesliehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12401609334253676307noreply@blogger.comBlogger11125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9172726268459163555.post-20757022664015408592011-06-24T19:36:44.106-07:002011-06-24T19:36:44.106-07:00All I gotta say is .. I totally get this. I just ...All I gotta say is .. I totally get this. I just had a visualized memory of being a kid and escaping to the darkened living room to binge through a few Hershy's kisses to get through the night (something akin to chuggin a beer or shooting up I guess).PJ Geekhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16550278783075004470noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9172726268459163555.post-49671799897194213922011-06-24T10:56:43.339-07:002011-06-24T10:56:43.339-07:00Here is the really cool thing, you have so much aw...Here is the really cool thing, you have so much awareness about what is going on with you. This feeling of needing to engage in some "real eating" may have been triggered by thoughts of your daughter leaving again. That's huge Leslie! You can look back at it and see what happened. Perhaps next time you will be able to deal with the feelings with out the food-I think this is a major step.<br /><br />I can relate as I have been a closet eater for years! There is so much shame associated with that kind of behavior and even if I don't engage in the behavior just thinking about wanting to do it brings up feelings of shame.<br /><br />Karen makes a good point that simple carbs are like crack - our brain likes it and craves more. Eating fruit or veggies never sends me down the path to a binge!Tami@NutmegNotebookhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03734911958992997465noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9172726268459163555.post-71070761794968889062011-06-24T07:32:37.921-07:002011-06-24T07:32:37.921-07:00Bingeing....sigh...yep know a bit about that!! Ha...Bingeing....sigh...yep know a bit about that!! Hang in there. Try not to beat yourself up...Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9172726268459163555.post-84609802626734420622011-06-23T15:52:05.813-07:002011-06-23T15:52:05.813-07:00I am rooting for you, Leslie!I am rooting for you, Leslie!Shelleyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09268130692900152965noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9172726268459163555.post-1147165626271837402011-06-23T14:59:53.692-07:002011-06-23T14:59:53.692-07:00Great start, Leslie. I am so much like you in ter...Great start, Leslie. I am so much like you in terms of my food issues. I could have written this post. Keep moving forward....E. Janehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/04079110676794095541noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9172726268459163555.post-61796575781242038322011-06-23T12:38:53.302-07:002011-06-23T12:38:53.302-07:00This is so powerful to read. I hope that you found...This is so powerful to read. I hope that you found it as cathartic to write out.<br /><br />I will be cheering you on<br />xx<br />lesleyLife as a Caterpillarhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12060619595546876393noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9172726268459163555.post-25309498535134562262011-06-23T12:36:58.199-07:002011-06-23T12:36:58.199-07:00@ Deb - Thanks SO much for your comment and your o...@ Deb - Thanks SO much for your comment and your own honest sharing. It helps a lot to know there are other people who teeter on the brink of wackiness with food. That's one of the nicest parts of a 12 step fellowship, though I'm still at a point where I feel like most of THEM are a lot sicker than me! HAHAHA :-D<br /><br />@ Vickie - you gave me some good food for thought, as always, in your comment. I have Kay Sheppard's book and will check out her web site. The key is finding, through trial and error, what foods really do set us off and which we can succesfully navigate.<br /><br />@ Karen - You know I always appreciate your comments. I'm with you that the measuring thing is something I don't see myself signing on for in this incarnation! Maybe by avoiding the land mines of sugar and white flour, I can still be be reasonable with most other portions.Lesliehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12401609334253676307noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9172726268459163555.post-23357702184945797522011-06-23T11:51:04.398-07:002011-06-23T11:51:04.398-07:00I was so glad to see this post because I have been...I was so glad to see this post because I have been thinking about and missing you. It never ceases to amaze me that you and I are so different yet sometimes so the same. I have come to some of my own realizations this year and while I still don't know if I am officially an addict, it is very clear that I have something screwy when it comes to food and eating. I get that part about the beginning of a binge. I get not wanting to pay attention to what everything weights or watch every portion. That is part of what I have always liked about the South Beach Diet - no counting anything! It has helped me so much to give up sugar and white flour. Science says those things are... drum roll... addictive!Karenhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15086719828916510651noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9172726268459163555.post-45097577764125025952011-06-23T11:36:06.689-07:002011-06-23T11:36:06.689-07:00Saw your note. you are too cute.
Yes, I am here ...Saw your note. you are too cute. <br /><br />Yes, I am here to say there will be things which will be deal breakers for you (if you do them, you will be setting yourself up for a crash) and then there will be other things which are not an issue for you, but would be an issue for someone else. The skill is in putting away the ego and knowing which is truly which for you.<br /><br />Maybe instead of 'rigid' you need to think "help", as in how can you help yourself the same way you would help your very best friend with these same issues. <br /><br />My biggest help (for myself) is whole foods, portions, balance between food groups, and eating at meal time***. And then I have all the other non-food help items: regular sleep habits, writing regularly on my blog, water, exercise, living proactively, having grace and clarity, being kind. <br /><br />It took me a full year to train myself to do just the food part. A full year. And I had to deal with a lot of emotions that year. But it was a year well spent. <br /><br />I really understand how hard it is to have kids moving in and out of your hearth/home on a regular basis. We just get used to having them back and they are gone again. When they were little it was sort of an adjustment in the summer and then an adjustment again in the fall (school). And now it is on a much bigger scale as they physically leave for long periods of time. <br /><br />I can really understand needing a time out (that is how I see your trip to the store). wonder if, now that you recognize it, you will be able to teach yourself another (nonfood) time out tactic? <br /><br />that first year, mine was not very nice, I put myself in front of a blank wall and cried. It was like a time out corner. And the crying varied hugely. Sometimes it was relief, sometimes it was shame, sometimes it was a 2 year old's tantrum. If it was too strong to be contained in the corner, I would strip and get in the hot tub with the water running and bawl. <br /><br />Sometimes you gotta go through it to come out the other side. The muck gets really old after a while. And really exhausting.<br /><br /><br />***I don't like to calculate/track (personally). So I very happily measure things (I simply think of the measuring cup as a big spoon) as the trade off (for not having to track is so worth it). anyone reading this who is trying to figure out how that works, kay sheppard's web site has easy to understand information. I don't get hung up on each point with Kay. I am okay with tree nuts, but don't do artifical sweetners, Kay is the opposite. but I still like her basic meal format. when someone pointed her out to me, and I realized it all sort of average out in the end if it was whole food based, it was very welcome and freeing. It was not rigid to me, as I said, it was a fabulous trade off.Vickiehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05452333714845476967noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9172726268459163555.post-91656212026376580952011-06-23T11:31:18.062-07:002011-06-23T11:31:18.062-07:00You are soo NOT a looney! Today I nearly had to p...You are soo NOT a looney! Today I nearly had to pull my own arm back from reaching out to buy a candy bar at Walmart! Food addiction is real! AND scary. Because honestly, when I just keep eating and eating and being aware of the fact that I'm doing it, but not stopping myself is just a scary feeling!<br /><br />So glad you'll be back posting more! :)Jodiehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15630336513125354615noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9172726268459163555.post-49045184654921822572011-06-23T10:41:07.560-07:002011-06-23T10:41:07.560-07:00Sadly, none of what you wrote sounds like your...Sadly, none of what you wrote sounds like your're ready for the looney bin to me. :} It, of course, sounds exactly like what I think and do. sighhhhhh.<br /><br />Funny about the chips. I am not, really not, a chips person. A bag of any kind of chips could sit in my cupboard and I'd never be tempted to touch it. Sooooo, you'd think that when I went to a function the other day, that eating a few tortilla chips would be okay, huh? Well, you'd be wrong.<br /><br />It was one of those perfect storm things that had a very odd twist to me and became a tornado. It was a social function at church. A women's thing. (Rread a situation in which I am totally uncomfortable and want to run scrreaming from the room.)<br /><br />They did not have a dinner, but they had a table of appetizers and desserts. <br /><br />Mistake #1. I did not check the talbe first before I took my insulin.<br /><br />Instead, I checked my glucose and found that it was 98. Good, but I was about to eat food that would be higher in carbs than I ordianrily woud eat, so I took a mini dose of insulin. Then went to the table.<br /><br />Ack. EVERYTHING had guten or mucho sugar (not one low cal dish? really?) The only low gluten thing were tortilla chips and salsa. <br /><br />Well, I had already taken the insulin on a low read, so I HAD TO EAT. The chips would be safe.<br /><br />Except that they weren't. I mean it, Leslie, the minute a chewed the first chip--I felt this rush along with a fired-up impulse to eat. I noticed it as it happened. I even looked to see if I had a super caffeine drink in front of me by mistake.<br /><br />And then you know what I did? I ATE. Made sevral--I mean SEVERAL--trips back to the table putting a couple cookies or a piece of cake on my plate at a time. Made excuses to go past the table and picked up a cookie and popped it in my mouth before I got back to my seat. I was embarrassing! I completely lost control.<br /><br />And I am NEVER embarrassing in public--especially in regard to eating. I am the serious closet eater. Just soooo bizarre. I'm still a little shaken re: that event.<br /><br />Uh-hmm. So I guess the fact that you didn't sound looney to me doesn't mean much, huh? }<br /><br />I'm looking forward to more of these posts. Obviously, I need the info.<br /><br />DebAnonymousnoreply@blogger.com