I'm not feeling the blog much at all these days, but I am reading my favorites. I'm tired of focusing here mainly on weight and food, so I may actually change things up in the coming weeks and reformat. There is so much more in my life than weight/food/eating, and I don't think there is an original thought to be parsed by me on the subject. I've analyzed my addictive nature down to the atomic level. I'm making genuine progress for now.
That said, I do want to touch base and report that I am still logging my food and exercise on My Fitness Pal daily. It's a great tool for me - who'd'a'thunk? And the main thing I want to say is that I've lost 8 pounds since I began logging. But on MFP, I have only lost 1.5 lbs because after I first entered all my data back in early September, I didn't really begin logging consistently until October sometime, and in that period of time, I managed to gain 6.5 pounds over my recorded weight, and never went back in to change it. So until I actually lost from my original number, I didn't update my poundage. That happened this past Sunday, and I was delighted and motivated and have been doing even better since.
I'm absolutely choosing meals and snacks according to calorie content. For example, I developed a passionate love affair with Edy's Slow Churned Pumpkin Ice Cream that has 90 calories per 1/2 cup this fall. But I never want that piddly amount - so I'd have 1.5 cups for 270. But then I discovered that I could have a 6 oz carton of a Chobani flavor (strawberry is my fave) at 140 calories, top it with 2 Tbs. of Trader Joes Low Sugar Apricot Orange Spread for 60 calories - totalling 200, and I love it. It's positively decadent, and enabled me to stop buying the ice cream. More protein, more flavor, and 70 calories less.
It seems so simple, and yet I am steadily and slowly coming down the scale. I'm not being perfect, but I'm doing much better than I have in a long time, and seeing the results and feeling my clothes loosening is motivating me. I have to be careful not get into the crazy thinking of, "How can I speed this up...?", which is part of my disordered thinking around food. It can be a fine line between "easy does it" and insanity, and I still harbor doubts as to whether this moderate approach and slow progress can continue. As I always say, keep it in today only, because that is the only place I can take action.
How's that for not talking about food and such? As long as I have this blog - reformatted or not, I will update my progress from time to time. I always feel such support and kindness from bloggers that I want to stay accountable to my core issue for which I've gotten so much help here!
Last night I saw Denzel Washington's new movie "Flight", and was crying like a baby at the end. It's hard to watch in places, but well worth it, well done, well cast, and gripping. A very accurate portrayal of the behaviors and egocentrism that accompany alcoholism. Highly recommended.
Have a good weekend all - and if I don't post next week, have a Happy and love filled Thanksgiving.
