Sunday, July 1, 2012

What the holy crap?!?!?

My life has truly been very busy and full, which has definitely impacted my blogging.  So here I am on a Sunday morning to check in.  You'll hear why in a minute...(cliffhanger???)  My daughter has been here 2 weeks, and we've had such a good time.  No fighting between Jeannie and Mommy!  I feel like I'm on a perpetual vacation, except that pesky job I have.  Good news - I really like my job, so that's okay.  Bad news, I hate not being at home to hang out and play.  Welcome to reality, Leslie.

While Jean has been here, I've been doing tons of good vegetarian cooking, as Jean has been vegetarian for a long time.  I feel like I've been eating well, and definitely not bingeing, but also not counting any particular grams, cals, morsels in, etc.  I haven't been avoiding anything in particular, but haven't gone batshit crazy with cravings or out of control eating either.  I hadn't weighed since June 20th (my last post), and so I've been fearing weight gain, though my clothes weren't indicating that.  Finally this morning, 10 days after my last weigh in, I got on the scale, fervently praying for maintenance (at best) while fearing a substantial gain.

Guess what (and yes, this is the reason I'm posting today as I couldn't wait until tomorrow)??!!  I've lost 4 pounds in those 10 days!  I actually got off the scale and back on to see if my eyes were deceiving me.  Same thing - 203.  Then I moved the scale to a different spot...same thing.  Wow - and upon seeing that x3, I acknowledged to myself that I knew I'd been doing well and was halfway expecting a decent reading, despite my fear and trepidation of the scale beast.  I was trying to keep my expectations at zero or lower.

To say I'm delighted would be a massive understatement.  This is the lowest I've been in a loooonnnggg time - I'd have to read back through many months or longer to know when I was last this low. 

Now obviously, I've lost the pounds before - countless times.  And there is much left to do - and to lose.  But I'm still heartened and grateful and even a tiny bit proud that I've been able to find a little peace with food for the last few weeks.  I noted in my last post that summer is always a better time for weight loss for me - maybe because of how much I perspire!!!  I've gotten to a certain point in the last 3 years (192), blogging about how low I'm going to go, only to never get an ounce below that number.  I'm not cured, but this reminds and assures me that my body can lose weight when I eat less and move more.  Conversely - it can gain like a sonofabitch when I do the opposite. 

So - I'm giving myself a pat on the back, but also a stern reminder to stay in a day at a time.  A meal at a time, and an insane craving at a time.  I hope this is a springboard for continued success and progress as I seek my long coveted Peace Treaty with Food.

14 comments:

  1. Your time with your daughter sounds just wonderful, Leslie. Congratulations on your loss - that's just awesome work. And like you said, one day, one craving, one minute at a time.

    I'd like to sign that accord, too. Have a super Sunday.

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  2. Yay--I can just imagine how you felt when you weighed in! Good for you! And how nice that you have been aable to enjoy time with your daughter. There's nothing more fun that doing things with a daughter! congrats and I wish for you continued success!

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    1. Please excuse the typos. It's true what THEY say: haste makes waste!! (I hope I didn't make an error in my typo apology.)

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  3. Yea!!! Yes, you deserve many pats on the back Leslie :) How you lost those 4lbs is exactly how it needs to be done. And I love your "coveted Peace Treaty with Food"...that is what so many of us need. Thumbs Up Pretty Lady!

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  4. **pats pats pats**

    MizFit

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  5. Very very happy for you Leslie. May the downward trend continue!

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  6. That is awesome! Keep doing what you're doing :)

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  7. Hooray for not only getting along with your daughter, but eating intuitively and seeing a loss on the scale - huge victory! So proud of you Leslie! :D

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  8. I cleaned up my side bar when I reformatted my blog. I have a nice little collection of Leslie quotes going on my side bar. Wonder if you will remember all of them -?

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  9. Great for you! All the best!

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  10. Great job Leslie! I see a lot of great things are coming out of your daughter's visit!

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  11. Congratulations Leslie! I share your journey in losing weight and overcoming this food addiction. Been using Roca Labs to decrease my food intake. I've lost 10 lbs this month which is great and have been able to refuse indulging on that chocolate cake this 4th of july.

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  12. Sigh..another blog bites the dust.

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    1. I haven't bitten the dust - quite the opposite. On vacation in Atlanta and return home this weekend. May or may not post before Monday the 16th. All is well!

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