Thursday, December 3, 2009

What a difference 3 days make

I'm now 3 days clean with my eating. Entirely clean. Feels great. My weight today was down 0.6 pounds from yesterday, to 194.9; and ridiculous as it sounds, I was irritated that it wasn't lower. Now Monday I was 201.4 after the Thanksgiving Binge of '09, so to be down 6.5 pounds is pretty drastic and due mostly to loss of retained fluids. But my audacity to want more tells me it's time to stop weighing. I'm clearly over the hump of getting back on track, and playing scale roulette is extremely dangerous for me. No more weighing until next Friday, the 11th. Scout's honor, cross my heart and hope to spit, as Beaver Cleaver used to say.

I'm feeling pumped about my journey again. I'm enthusiastic, inspired and truly optimistic that I'm not going to do it; I'm doing it. I want to get below 190 in the worst way now. Next big goal, and it fits in nicely with the 266's Christmas Challenge, where I've committed to weighing 188 by December 26. This past Monday it was seeming like a fading vision; today it feels crisp, clear and doable. It's going to happen if I have to lop of a leg, which I won't because I'm sticking to my food plan to the letter; so my limbs are safe from the lopper.

The Rockettes were great last night - wonderful show. I'd never seen them before and was truly amazed at what "precision dancing" really is. We had good seats directly in front of the stage, though up high and back. I'm putting up a few pictures that are the best my old crappy non-zooming low pixel camera could manage. (BTW, guess what I want for Christmas??)






This definitely made me want to go to Radio City Music Hall to see them on their home field, and preferably with a seat right up front. I'll probably need to work a second job for 6 months to afford it! Maybe next year.

My knee surgery is tomorrow, and I'm ready to get it done and start healing. I'll find out later today what time I have to be there - hopefully early in the day, as I'll be up by 4 a.m. regardless. My catastrophic mind wants to toss up scary ideas like, "What if I don't wake from the anesthesia", and other choice dismal scenarios. But I've learned to just say to the mind, "Thank you for sharing" and ignoring the nonsense. Actually I've been told this will likely take 30-45 minutes and is a routine and unremarkable procedure. That sounds good except when it's my wittle knee. But I'm optimistic and feel fortunate to have decent health insurance that enables me to do this.

Hope everyone has a great Thursday.

16 comments:

  1. Personally, I believe the Radio City Christmas spectacular is one of the "must see" shows in a lifetime. I live only about 2 hours from NYC so I've been lucky enough to see it several times. I hope you get to see it live one day!

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  2. I have heard it is a wonderful show! Glad you enjoyed yourself.

    I will be thinking about you tomorrow and sending positive healing thoughts your way.

    Thanks for being here Miss Leslie. Your words of wisdom mean A LOT to me. More then I can say...

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  3. I wholeheartedly agree you should stop weighing. At least, try to weigh only once a week or fortnight. I'm sure you know deep down that weighing every day is counter-productive as a large loss makes you feel as though you have some leeway to enjoy a treat (or 10!) and a maintain or gain can send you on a downward spiral... If you have compulsive tendencies then one tends to replace another. I wish I could be a compulsive knitter instead of my other compulsions! lol

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  4. Hi Leslie. Hurray for 3 clean days! Glad you're feeling so optimistic about things. And great to recognise that stepping on the scale is not going to make any positive contribution from this point.

    Very good luck to you for tomorrow. And keep that eating plan nailed in place!

    Best wishes,
    Bearfriend xx

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  5. I weigh in the morning and at night...but only record once a month...I don't know why...but it makes it so I keep congnizant of the fact that my daily eating makes a difference, but an up or a big down isn't really "official' until weigh in day.I is almost like It keeps the pressure on and takes the pressure off. It takes away the pressure of weigh day cause I already know, but keeps me on track daily cause I know I will Have To weigh in eventually and record. I'm strange, lol.

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  6. I hold to the belief that when really down, binging, whatever, that I CAN feel completely different in just three days. This belief helps me turn things around when it may feel too much or too hard. Or that I'm failing. Just three days.

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  7. Hi Leslie! I'm just catching up again and wanted to wish you well on your surgery tomorrow. I'll be thinking of you!!

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  8. Good luck tomorrow. And your pictures are great.

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  9. Great pictures. I wish I could go to Radio City Music Hall. Sounds like a great time. Congrats on the 3 days of clean eating. It's hard I know...

    Good luck with the surgery...

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  10. Yay for eating clean! I'll be praying that your surgery goes swimmingly tomorrow.

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  11. Good job, Leslie! That is how you do it for life.

    And good luck on your surgery tomorrow. I hope you will give yourself some time to recuperate and not worry too much about weight loss or exercise.

    And the Rockettes! I saw them once at Radio City when I was a teenager and I never forgot it--so exciting!

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  12. you are the second blogger having surgery today! she woke at 3:25am and posted because she couldn't sleep any more. And how nice that it is a Friday! Good luck to you! Pop back and let us know how things are going when you have time.

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  13. A 12 step compulsive eater blogger that I once knew used to call that 'clean' feeling 'stringing pearls' on a necklace.

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  14. she is not blogging any more. This was years ago. good luck!

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  15. Thank you for your note on my blog, glad to have you join me! I was excited to see that you are below 200 again. I look forward to that day, it's not too far in the future. Good luck on your surgery.

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  16. What a good thing to be able to say you are pumped about your journey again! Woot!

    Leslie, can I be so bold to ask a huge favor of you? Can you please change your rules for comments to allow Name/URL? The only other option that works for me is OpenID and it is terrible. I have tried to comment on this post for 7 or 8 times already and the credentials just fail over and over. If you don't want to do it, I understand, but I wish you would consider it. Thanks.

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