I haven't been exercising near enough - just around 2 mile walks, if anything at all. My planned trip to the gym yesterday didn't happen because..........because I continued to debate in my mind
First thing was at my AA meeting yesterday morning. A fairly new guy shared at the end of the meeting. This guy is really bright, pretty young (mid to late 30's maybe), and extremely overweight. Obviously it's an AA mtg so food issues aren't discussed, but he usually manages to talk about his early recovery in a way that evidences to me he's also working on his food issues. Like I do.
What he said was that he felt so good because he'd gotten up early and walked the way he "intends" to every day, but often doesn't. He reported that when he first awoke, the thought of the walk was immediately followed by the "decision" that he'd do it "later". He went on to say that all of a sudden, he sat up and said, "NO. I'm just going to do it and not debate it. If I start the debate in my mind about whether or not to do this simple thing, every decision I make for the rest of the day will be similar, and I won't make the best decisions for myself."
Maybe that doesn't sound like such a big deal, but it hit me square between the eyes. YES. No exercise yields debate about food choice, which yields debate about snacking, which yields debate about selecting crackers or junkier items rather than fresh healthy fruit and veggies, which yields more sketchy and anti-self-care behavior over that which promotes my health and well being. It was pretty deep for this blogger to ponder.
Second was a comment from the wonderful Biz, who reminded me of a post by Helen from Monday April 11th titled INO, which stands for "It's not an option". It's a great post (check it out if you haven't read it), and I thank Biz for reminding me of it and telling me how much it's helped her. And of course I thank Helen for the notion of countering my lazy overeating inner voice with the INO phrase when a self defeating thought/compulsion presents itself to my consciousness.
Both the aforementioned mind shifts helped me this morning when the inspiration to walk to the meeting hit, and rather than turning over and pulling down the shade on such a potentially beneficial divine suggestion, I heeded it.
Can I tell you how much better I feel physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually for having gotten out and hoofed it to and from the meeting? By the time I got there, I could already feel a shift in the sort of funk that has been looming in my periphery, and by the time I returned, I felt like a new woman. They say exercise is the best remedy for depression, and while I wouldn't claim to have been depressed, the funk has contributed to my overall inertia regarding self care. Also, my knees feel really good, and I know that the more they move, the better for my osteoarthritis. They feel positively normal! Gotta love it, and I do :).
The plan - more of the same tomorrow. My food was great yesterday. The walking substantially increased the odds that the rest of my choices for today will be good, including going to my meditation group tonight after dinner. This could be a very good day.