Keep this coming

My streak'o'bliss is continuing, in that I'm still staying on plan and not struggling with binge urges.  I did step on the scale yesterday morning (after much of the aforementioned surrendering of results) and was really happy to see I'm down 2 pounds!!  Hearty fist pump on that.  And at least for yesterday, it was motivating and encouraging, rather than giving me license for an extra little something to put into my sacred temple of a body.  And as has happened a quintillion times before, when I do better, I feel better.  Lighter.  Calmer.  Peaceful.

Wherever this current state of grace has come from, or why, or why now, or whatever mind crap is spinning of the hamster running on the wheel in my brain, I'm so grateful that for the last few days it's been pretty easy to stay the course.  No fighting compulsive food thoughts, which is amazing.  Wanting, even craving, to get out and walk a few miles.  The beautiful weather of the last week is set to change back to more typical late March going out like a lion after today, but the early appearance of blossoms, bulbs and buds makes being outdoors intoxicating.  The perfect non-storm of hope, optimism and promise.

Hmmm, sounds like I'm going for poet laureate or something there. 

I took today off from work (telling only the most white of little lies), and as soon as I publish this post am going to head out to Ridley Creek State Park to walk the beautiful 5 mile loop I've spoken of here so often.  Then perhaps some yardwork, and some reading (just started the Hunger Games - could only stay off the bandwagon for so long!).  Around 3:30 I'm meeting someone I sponsor in AA for coffee, and then at 7 taking Lisa - my sponsor (with lung cancer who continues to defy all odds and be living well) out to dinner at a local Mediterranean restaurant for her 24th AA anniversary.  What a day!  It occurred to me when I was driving home from a meeting this morning that I know how to take care of myself.

And about that - taking care of myself is pretty important, but can mask itself in unhealthy practices like going for the junk food, not exercising because I'm too...whatever.  When I'm in a good place in those arenas, I feel entirely different about myself and my life.  See the last 3 words of paragraph one.  This is what I want - so why do I lose sight of 'this' so easily??  I'm not going to dwell on the struggle today or on fearing that 'this' won't last.  I'm thankful 'this' is where I am today and that I'm able to want what I have rather than focusing on having what I want.

Have a good weekend friends!