Friday, May 28, 2010

3 day weekend Friday!!!

Last week when my posts were a series of pontifications contemplations on certain concepts related to weight loss, one of the things I reflected about here was the notion of "enough". Just today I read a quote from a little gem of a book called A Thousand Paths to Enlightenment, shown above.  A friend gave me this 464 page gem of a little book a couple of Christmases ago, and it's chocked full of very short quotes (many of unknown authorship) on all kinds wisdom nuggets.  I've tried to order this book to give to other folks and haven't been able to find it, but perhaps will try again today in my endless endeavor to fill work time with occasional personal tasks.

Anyway, this morning I did my usual practice of just opening the book to a page and seeing what jumps out as my edification for the day, and I read this (which btw is uncited):

"To know men is to be wise, to know oneself is to be illuminated. 
To conquer men is to have strength, to conquer onself is to be strong still. 
And to know when you have enough is to be rich."   

I really like that saying, especially the part about how knowing when one has enough rendering her/him rich.  It reminds me of yet another saying I first heard in AA, "Happiness isn't having what you want, it's wanting what you have".  So true.  And linked inextricably to the concept of having enough to be whole, healthy, content and able to be of service to others in the course of just one day.  I really don't have to get too tangled up about tomorrow and beyond, though planning, intention and goal setting give direction and focus for my activities in today.

This morning I was thinking about how the holiday weekend is upon us, and how I have an overall sense of deep contentment about the possibilities for activities, projects and connections with family and friends for the next 3 days.  Yet I was aware of vague stirrings of angst that I couldn't immediately identify.  What has risen to awareness is that I'm thinking about the food ops that the holiday weekend will bring, and feeling nervous and in turmoil over wanting to stay true to my plan and fearing temptations that will invariably present over the course of the 3 days.  I think material from the book I've talked about this week, Life Without Ed, is percolating at a subconscious level and bringing me some insights and awarenesses that I might not otherwise be getting. 

What I've come to see is that though I can talk the talk about trusting I have "enough" of all I need to sustain health, wholeness and availability for others for today (see 4th paragraph of this post), I'm not really walking the walk when I'm feeling churned up over "how will I ever be able to adhere to my food and exercise plan for the holiday weekend?"!  Interesting that the left hand does not necessarily know what the right hand is up to, or the left brain aware of the right brain's cogitations.  Such a head trip this journey continues to be!  My intention for today is to follow my food plan and exercise.  I'll deal with tomorrow when it becomes today.

Not much more from me today...I had a better food day yesterday, though not exactly to the letter of my plan.  Less after dinner munching, and munching much healthier...fruit and low fat graham crackers.  In moderation.  I think the food plan needs to be modified to accomodate my after dinner desire to eat something...ANYTHING.  Maybe I'll look at that over the weekend.

A new Farmers' Market opened in a local town yesterday, and I got 2 quarts of fantastic locally grown strawberries. They are solid red throughout, juicy and sweet, and really with no hulls

Aren't they gorgeous?  I also got some cut up watermelon and pineapple and had a fruit snack when I got home from work, and then another after dinner.  I haven't had REAL strawberries since last summer!  We get the California ones that are shipped across the country that look perfect and beautiful but are like white tasteless styrofoam inside.  I'm sure they are good when they are California!  But not here in PA after they've been trucked in regrigerated containers.  Summer fruit is a little piece of Heaven!

This is my home-from-college son getting ready to go to work at the deli...isn't he a cutie?  After I snapped his picture, he practically wrestled me to the ground for the camera, saying he didn't want me using his picture for my evil purposes!  Haha, my evil purpose is show him off!  He's a wonderful kid with a great heart, and a sense of humor that keeps us laughing.  It still blows my mind that 2 of my babies now sport beards!  And no, my daughter isn't the other one!

That's it for me.  I'm going to try and stay at least partially connected to blogsville over the weekend.  Everyone have a safe and happy time.


  1. That book looks cool- I love quotes and inspirational one too! :)

    mmm strawberries! Nothing better than fresh ones! :)

  2. Have a wonderful weekend with your family and friends :)

  3. I just happened on your blog today...I kind of giggled at the strawberries...I was born in PA & still have a sister there - I'm in FL now and I recall an excited conversation she had with my Mother on the phone once -
    "Guess what I am eating?" (it was about April then) "Fresh Strawberries!"
    My Mom's response - "Big deal, we've had them here for months already."
    It ate her up! LOL
    (They do look wonderful, though!)
    Enjoy your holiday weekend!

  4. There is nothing like a good strawberry, and those look delicious!

    I love little inspiration books like yours - the short blurbs help with my short-attention span - plus when you read a good one it's easy to copy and post by the computer monitor (where I like to put gentle reminders).

    Your son is very handsome! Isn't it great to see your grown kids turn out so well?!?

  5. Strawberries -yum ! And isn't it fun to watch our sweet baby boys grow into these hairy people ?? ( mine is 18 and also wears a beard and mustache)

  6. Yum on the strawberries. Can't wait to have some locally grown ones here.

    Your son is good looking but then again I always did have a thing for a man with facial hair :)

    Have a wonderful weekend friend.

  7. Your son is gorgeous! And so are those strawberries!

    I found 32 used books on Amazon for that book - I think the cheapest one was around $4!

    I hope you have a wonderful weekend, don't think to much and just enjoy the time with friends and family!

  8. Can't wait to go to the local Upick strawberry patch that just opened up. Mmmmm.

    That book looks wonderful. Have a great weekend.

  9. Handsome son!!! Why do they hate pictures? My son despises when I sent his picture to everyone I know. Hey...we should show off the lovely things we helped bring into the world :)

    My food is still up, down, and all around. Well really it's a lot of shovel, shovel, shovel. I really liked the AA saying!! Oh...what a process....

  10. Lots to think about today Leslie. It's easy for someone like me who has been fortunate enough not to have a problem with addiction to tell people to just do A, B, or C. when you are having trouble with your eating. Thank you for helping me understand what it is like to have to deal with this issue. It must be very frustrating to feel anxious about your eating when a holiday weekend should be enjoyed. I wish you all the best.

  11. Yes, your son is a cutie. I truly understand how you feel about the beard, my son will be 14 next month and already has a mustache. Too soon! LOL!
    Enjoy your weekend.

  12. That is a handsome lad you birthed!

    You're so right about the styrofoam strawberries from CA. (Almost sounds like a true variety.) They are picked too soon and never ripen. Farmer's market berries are the BEST.

    I understand your apprehension about the eating this weekend; me too. Let's be strong and have no regrets.

  13. Leslie I love the quote. "Happiness isn't having what you want, it's wanting what you have"

    I need to read the eating disorder book, it sounds so interesting.

    Make a plan for the weekend, that is what I am doing.

    Your son is handsome, how nice to have him home from college. It sounds like he has a great personality.

    Thanks for the nice comments you have been posting on my blog. I hope you enjoy the salmon and strawberry spinach salad as much as we do!

  14. Thanks, Leslie, for commenting on my blog. I love your style of posting and you could write an inspirational book too! Son is cutie too- my youngest daughter has been dating the same guy since sophomore year of college; she graduated last year and he did this year. I have no idea how the relationship will play out but they are committed- no job for him yet though and she has another year of graduate school. BTW we lived in Philly suburbs for 5 years and just loved it. I really hated to leave there. BTW good food choices for us this weekend!

  15. Hi Leslie. Hope your holiday weekend goes well. The company is more important than the food!

    Bearfriend xx

  16. You know, Leslie, in "maintenance mode", unfortunately, after 8 months of being stellar, I do find more incidents of "well, just this tiny bit" showing back into my mindset. I'm learning it will always be a juggling act. That denying myself all naughty food for life likely isn't realistic. That it really DOES have to be about adhering to a good policy of portion control. At least for me. So I totally get what you are saying. Oh, and as a southern California girl, I can attest that the strawberries, particularly these first couple of month's worth, are indeed sweet here. LOL :)

    Have a great weekend; make the best choices you can at the time, but don't let less-than-ideal choices ruin the weekend. There's always Tuesday. :)

  17. Great little quotes! Hope you're having a lovely weekend. :o)

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