Friday weigh in

Today is weigh-in day. I was 203.6 which is a loss of 2.4 pounds. Was hoping for more and felt frustration and irritation rising within. Then I just read Tammy's comment this morning on my yesterday post and she noted I was right on track for 10 pounds in 4 weeks. I realize she's right, but I'm going to kick it up a notch this week in hopes of blasting off some more poundage.

Last night was the first meal out I had all week, and I know it played a role in my weight. Tom is out of town (lucky man gets to go to the Masters' Tournament in Augusta every year because his father got tickets back in the 40s so it's a family tradition) which has helped my eating and cooking be quite austere. Last night I went to a Thai place and had Pad Thai with shrimp along with several bites of a spring roll. Also had a cup of the Yoplait Delights Lemon Torte which was just so incredibly delicious I had to have another. So I brought the last 2 to work this morning to give away. Yet another source of food crack for me.

The wonderful Lyn at Escape From Obesity had a great post yesterday about food addiction that is a must read if you haven't already. She talks about coming to realize which foods are probably going to be need to be permanently off the table (no pun intended, but a good one, yes?) if one is striving for continued abstinence from bingeing. For her it's fried and salted items, most specifically white potatoes. For me, I think simple white sugar is going to be my required omission from the diet. The sweetness of that Lemon Torte treat, even at only 100 calories, just set off something that awakened every cell in my body to want more. It made my whole evening miserable and stress filled.

This is physiological and well documented as such in medical literature. Once it's on board, I'm powerless. Of course, I didn't do what I planned in case of food urges which was to blog about my desire to have more, which could have made the difference. With booze, the idea is to call before you pick up. Once you pick up a drink, a physiologic body response happens in an alcoholic that almost requires they continue drinking. And in alcoholics, since booze is mainly sugar, it makes sense that any food that converts to simple sugar in the body can set off a similar reaction. At least in this addict. Lesson learned. No more Yoplait Delights, which is too bad cuz they're GOOD. For all I know they are Splenda sweetened, but there has to be some sugar, because Splenda in my Greek yogurt has NEVER set me off.

Also, I'm eating at home! My ability to control what goes into the temple is 100% at home, as long as I make fresh and simple foods. No processed stuff if I can help it. No meals out this week - with God as my witness I won't eat out before next Friday. This will be a challenge. But hell, I'm doing Tammy's challenge anyway - what's another?

I hope everyone has a good weekend. I am happy about the 2.4 pound loss, and I got yet another lesson about my body this week! Suspected it before, but this was revolutionary, as I had no cravings until I had that damn little cup!