I stated truth to myself . "Whatever you eat will not be enough. It WILL lead to more." And the self agreed, grudgingly.
"Self", said I, "You are only committed to today. If you want to eat all that isn't nailed down in your house and the local convenience stores, you can do it tomorrow. You will not die if you abstain for the rest of today, eating only your planned meal. You may cry, sigh, shake, quake, obsess, rage, ruminate. But you won't die or be negatively affected in any physical sense." I'm not kidding, I really had to have that talk with myself.
And I got through the day! And woke up with the distinct ABSENCE OF REGRET and NO REMORSE. That's beautiful stuff.
Second - my weight this morning was 205.6. Don't love it, but love it better than what it was Monday. Several pounds better, if you wanna know. It is my starting weight for the 101 Days of Summer Challenge.
One of my 2 goals for that challenge is to lose 10 pounds. So by Labor Day, 195 is where I want to be. I'll accept lower, but no higher, including the .6 lbs of spare change. I know myself and my body. If I do what I'm supposed to do, I can achieve this and more. I'll be updating Biz regarding the challenge tomorrow, as per her terms!
Third - this part is hard. Very hard. I vowed to post a pic. Hubby took pics this morning and they seriously depressed me. In the big reveal, I'm going to show what I posted back in early January. The clothes I wore then were better because they were tight fitting - esp. the pants. As awful as the shots were, I was somewhat "contained".